I really dislike doing these first posts. Where to even start?
Well, one of the tenets of this site (more on that later) is that to get what you want, you have to try. Just do something. Anything is better than nothing. You get the idea.
And so here I am. Doing something.
I’ll be honest; I don’t know where this site is going, what it’s going to be or where it’s going to end up. Maybe I’ll crap out half a dozen posts and then lose interest in the whole project, leaving an abandoned blog for a few months until I let the domain expire and the whole thing dies. Who knows.
But the idea so far (things are still pretty half formed here, I have to admit) is this: I’m not happy with my life. I’m feeling like a bit of a loser. Don’t get me wrong – I’ve done a lot of great things in my life so far. I’ve got a lot of great things in my life. I’m generally happy. But I keep thinking back to 16 year old me, finishing school and wondering how his life was going to turn out. I think he’d be looking at me right now and saying ‘Really? Is this it?’. He wouldn’t be impressed. He didn’t know what he wanted to do with his life at the time but I’m pretty sure he wanted more than this. Probably a fighter pilot or something.
Anyway, I digress. More on that in a later post.
The idea behind this is twofold: Firstly, it’s a way of examining things and trying to work out where I want to be in life. I don’t necessarily want to be rich. That would be nice, but not if it means working my guts out in a job that doesn’t interest me. Successful? That depends on how you define what successful means. What I want is to be interesting. I want to go places, do things, see things.
Secondly, I’m experimenting with the idea that my own musings and ideas can be used to hack together some sort of a self help blog for people in a similar rut. Maybe I can even make some money out of it. Probably not, but who knows?
Anyway, that’s the dreaded first post dealt with. Now it’s time to start writing about more interesting things.